Stuck inside my crazy mind for the day...

Key things of the day... I realized I can not stand being alone. The computer crapped out and the tv decided he was going to join as well. Go have fun d-bags! My alone realization: Holy Shit I am messed up! Also Hubby is in the field and hating life at the moment. While being eaten alive by bugs he had time in alone in his mind as well And his realization: He hates his job and feels he is not being used for all his talents. ( if he were not in the field I could be using him for some his best talents! :) On a better note, Baby decided to sleep through the night! She appenently does not like her bottle anymore and will starve rather than have it. At least until Mommy gives her food. That Elf baby of mine loves food so much that we drove through somewhere the other day. Well the moment the delisious scent of the food met her tiny little nose she screamed and sqwaked like a Velosa Raptor! Aww My little foodie. P.S. I am not going to be getting my resturant yet. I guess Mister Flay did not like my idea. :( Oh well Maybe someday.

Moments

With all the moments in life why is it we tend to recall the hardest moments, the saddest moments, and the most despondent moments. Yet we forget the fun happy and most "orgasmic" ones? In deciding where to start in introduce myself to the internet world then only things that seem worth noting are the most painful. Today consisted of making the hubby my friend who stayed the night and the kids each their own omelets then made myself one also. Later the hubby informed me he was going to take my friend out of town later today and I was going to be watching the kids. He didn't ask me he told me. She then said "he should have asked." Then As I left the room I overheard him say "I love my My wife so much."

Why is it we all say the things we feel to everyone but the people that matter and really need to hear it?

First post

Hmmm Well Hi there internet world. I am not sure what to write on my very first blog. I am a mom a wife of the army a daughter a sister a friend a cook a housekeeper a lover a referee a cab a therapist a high school drop out the product of a crazy 4th of july weekend a woman and the hardest thing I have ever done is try to be ME. I think it is time. So here I am this is my honest blog. If you don't like what you read don't read it. I am going to find the confidence in myself to be who I am. And Love me or hate me I don't are it is the truth. I think this will be the first place I will be able to vent my true feelings and find myself again. I believe somewhere in life I have picked up so much of everyone else that I have begun to dissapear. Well more later thank you oh wonderful internet and technology for giving me myself back!